Egg +Bump pictures

finally uploading pictures!` Here he is, had my second scan last week to see heart and definatly a boy, whoo! 

and some more bump develpoment, hehe!

15wks+5days

20weeks

 

23wks+4days

I am thourghly loving my bump! Spend every day on holiday in that bikini, had some funny looks but thats just men feeling embarrased at seeing breasts on a mummy, bless em. and young girls looking shocked at seeing an actual womens body, well I think pregnant women look amazing and should be on the covers of magazines instead of airbrushed models!

20 weeks scan, finally!

I was so nervous the last few days I'm 21weeks was so excited and have longed for this seemingly forever lol!
 Gosling was coming with us, she's been so excited, but it did make me worry more  about what if some things wrong, how will I put on a brave face an explain it to her? Had an anxious tummy all morning but managed to make myself eat though!

so at the scan, we got told....

its a BOY!!! 

Annoyingly though I couldn't focus on that and get excited right away because my lazy child wouldn't turn over properly though so I have to go have to go back to get heart valve pictures, or veins, erm forgotten :/ she said it all looked fine but she couldn't get a picture at that angle.
And mot worryingly, I was told my placenta maybe low and I have to go back at 36weeks to get checked, my scan next week might decide whether I need to go back again.


Had pretty much convinced myself to have a home birth now I've been told my placenta looks like it may be low. She mentioned it as we were leaving so I didn't get to ask more.
 If next weeks shows its higher they wont do another one but if its low like she thought, and hasn't moved by 36weeks, that means a  csection :(
I'm really bummed out as I so desperately want a natural birth, after ending with a forceps delivery last time, and I was getting excited at having Gosling there as she really wants to see the baby pop out, now there is a chance I'll be having a csection, I won't even be able to video it and won't be able to go home right away. actually make that crushed not bummed.
Dunno how I'm going to explain this to Gosling, she'll be so disappointed.
Of course after doing some research I've found that most people who have a low placenta at this stage find its moved by the the 32+wk scan so I'm keeping my fingers crossed and trying to just look forward to seeing my little boy again.

thinking of homebirth.

Totally forgot to press post on this last month! oh well here goes :


Ok I wouldnt normally admit that I parp, but I the other day I just had to let off a VERY loud parp, to which my 2 an a half year old jumped and looked at me, an I said 'whoops I popped'
and she excited said 'THE BABY OUT!!??'
LMAO, 'erm no sweetheart it was just winding popping, sorry'
Shes very interested in the baby popping out my 'lady bum' as we call it, lol!


Even though Goslings birth didnt go exactly to plan (hospital waterbirth) and ended in emergancy forceps instead , I'm still considering a homebirth for this one.
But how do you cope with the mess???
My water broke before my labour started and every contraction was a gush of liquid, :/ I managed with nappies on way to hospital then my mum convinced me to let it out on the floor while she moped up (all embarresment and worry about being naked or disgusting completely dissapeared in labour, lol)
 I am worried about being stuck in the bathroom during my whole labour for fear of leaking all over my carpets, dont fancy clearing that up after labour (an mums to far away to help now :P ) aswell as the blood ectect.
But then again, no birth is the same, and I and lounge in my bath as soon as I want!
I know Gosling would love to see the baby pop out, shes constantly trying to look between my legs and loves seeing the Birth centre video where the baby comes out.

baby brain and exhuastion

Well if I was a slow blogger before pregnancy then I'm almost non existance now!
exhuastion and baby brain pretty much sums it up, lol!

I had really bad nausea and aweful nursing aversion till I was over 10 weeks, it slowly went away over a week or so.  I spent a week with aweful headaches to go with the dizzyness i was feeling frequently till 13 weeks.
I'm now 14 weeks and have a stinking cold, but as far as i can tell i'm in the 'blooming' second trimester and if it wasnt for a toddler and house guest causing lack of sleep that resulted in me catching a cold, I'd be feeling pretty awesome :P

At 10 weeks iIfelt a lil bit of 'rolling' odd sensation behind my belly button, it happened repeatly for 10mins at 2am, im sure it was Egg! then annoyingly no definate movement again till 13 weeks, cheeky baby likes to tease!
My 12 week scan was amazingly clear, though I couldnt tell the sex. This babe is so unlike gosling already, she moved so much I had flutters everynight from 12 weeks and she danced and wiggled through out the scan, this babe was so still that for a heartstopping second i thought my Egg wasnt living! worst 5seconds of my life, but then I spotted the heart beating and Egg streached an arm, almost like a cheeky wave! we mustve got to watch for almost 10mins and Egg stretched a leg, an arm. barely moved really, maybe its a lazy boy? lol!

11weeks2days

My bump is rounded, its still coming straight out from behing my belly button, I'm carrying all in front so unlike Gosling! Ive found it a bit unweildly at times, I spent 3days in what iIthink was a 'bump-spurt', lol, where I felt like i had no stomach muscles and it was all hanging out, it was heavy! I kept holding my belly in and using scarfs to tye round belly an back for support, then, at exactly 13weeks, Egg spent and hour wiggling and turning an doing somersaults it felt, and the next day my bump was obvious and felt comfortable again! weird.

5weeks

10 weeks

12weeks

at the moment my bump pictures are random, blurry, but im having professional ones taken two, i got the first shoot at 12weeks :)

I dont have any milk, that dissapeared at 10 weeks though Gosling has still been nursing, less and less and now she will only have naptime, recently she can vary, some days she'll have a breif nurse on each side, other times she'll nurse for 10mins on one side, and others she just cuddles up to my breast, tells me she loves me and slowly drifts off. Its all been very sweet, i do miss nursing especially in the morning as I cant jump up with the energy of a two an half year old! I'm also reliefed that its stopped just because of the nursing aversion, on the occasion that she does want to nurse, both sides for 10mins each, I am gritting my teeth as she doesnot seem to know how to nurse properly, or perhaps now my milk has dried up it just makes my skin crawl. I hate feeling like that as it stamps on the great memories we have, luckily she is so sweet, she stops to hug me and tell me loves me, makes it so worth it <3
At this point I have no idea if she'll nurse when the baby is born, she loves to get her head in my top/jumper, and have me 'push' her out, then she is a baby! i have to cuddle an rock her and she PRETENDS to nurse. so who knows!

PREGNANT! first trimester so far :D

Got my BFP on the 20th of january! though it was very faint. I was only just 4weeks. I should be due 30th of sept :D
  I took another test to a few days later hoping to see a comforting dark line but it was just as faint :/
I'm one of those people who has to test alot to keep checking because I dont feel pregnant! all my symptoms on the run up to bfp were the same ibs/af symptoms I get, so didnt think I'd get my bfp this month, so glad I have! I'm still tired but all my achy af'ness has stopped already. and my IBS has calmed down so dont know if that was pregnancy related. was the same with Gosling. I should've be glad that I didnt have lotsa bad symtoms so early.
  I knew I shouldnt get excited so early but I cant help it! We started trying in JUNE. That seems so long ago now! I phoned my midwife but she said I have to be refered to her by my surgery midewife, who will see me at 8weeks and then after the 12wk scan I can see my chosen midwife, seems so far off! I hate waiting >.<

  The week before my BFP I was having IBS and af symtoms and feeling very sorry for myself, I was craving and eating nuttella porridge every morning! I thought it was a chocy AF sorta craving, but obviously not! trying to eat more carefully now, first 2 weeks after bfp i was craving nuts nuts nuts! an a lil dried fruit, so not all bad. my second 2 weeks, im now in week 8, ive felt very thirsty, very hungry, and very nauseas, I hate the thought of food but I'm starving! driving me bonkers!

 I read my bump will be out sooner, not sure if I'm thrilled or dreading, I kinda wanted to keep quiet and im a terrible liar so hiding a bump at 12wks might be hard :/ lol!
already I have a bigger belly, I think alot of it is bloating but its like its all gathered behind my belly buttom if that makes sense, I can still do up all my jeans but sadly the lil layer of fat left from previous preg now lips over my jeans a bit, and all my tops are tight round belly, its the oddest , most unflattering bump I've ever seen, lol! It seems really high up for 8weeks, my last one started growing bladder height, till I couldnt do up jeans an then it grew up wards, this one is coming right out the middle of my belly! cant wait for it to round off. :D 

I still work at a breastfeeding cafe and people always ask me if we'll be having another baby, I normally say 'I hope so! we're ttc soon' now I'm pregnant though, I tried  saying it, like 'I hope so'and leave it at that, but at 6 weeks i cracked and started letting a few people who asked know.
Lots of people knewfound out we're trying but no one mentioned it, luckily they are a sensible bunch who know that asking 'are you pregnant yet?' every week might bet a person down, lol.

we only told our closest freinds for the first few weeks. I was going to tell family when they visit in a month or so.. but they knew we're ttc, and since I might have a bump by theni cracked and told them on the phone! still not going to Facebook it though, I'm tempted to post after my 8week appointment tomrrow, I'll have to see what the midwife says about miscarriage rates at this stage.

Oh, and I'm still nursing Gosling, more on that in another post ;P (soon hopefully!)

new year new determination

January first week

Gosling has breastfed in the mornings, as I plan to keep doing, she had no more till nap time (but LOTS of food snacks) at naptime I manage to breastfeed her for less the 10minutes, cuddling her to sleep while she is in bed, her arm wrapped round my neck in a very loving death grip, lol!

she had no more bf in afternoon ( again tho, lots of snacks, its like she is starving!)
the other at night i asked my partner to put her to bed so I wouldnt have to feed her, but being a man he left the night light on even tho we know full well that she'll get out of bed if there is any light! I only discoverded the light was on after she'd gotten out of bed 3 times and he insisted each time the lights were all off, gah! so i had to feed her, but managed less the 5minutes!
 Gosling has been very good recently, ive been trying to keep her busy, and explaining that MIlkies are for babies and sleepy times only.
A few weeks ago, she fed in the morning, then i decide to keep busy! we went to town early and to the library, my hope was that she'd be worn out and fall asleep without milk on my way to BF cafe where i am a peer supporter. she did not fall asleep! i walk around for an extra half an hour an she still didnt sleep. at the end of cafe she had a melt down that required milk. she fell asleep on the way home and woke up when wegot back, she was very upset had some milkbut was near hysterics and made me cry too trying toconvince her to stop.
I so so so want another baby, but trying to 'restirct' feeds has been so horrible, Ive been torn about giving in, missing the milk and cuddles through out the day, and i know neither of us is ready to quit, so what if pregnancy drys me up? hopefully its worth it and we'll make it through some how.

I'm due to 'surge' this weekend, CD14. If the reducing works, the surge will get high enough to ovulate. I have OPKs at the ready, and checking for EWCM every day recording it all on Countdowntopregnancy.com

Im totally prepared to DTD and make a baby!

Daddy bath?

Gosling is currently very curious, and likes to know the names of everything, how things work, and where every one is. I like to try and be as accurate as a 2year old can handle.

Gosling can hear the bath running and says 'my bath', I said no its daddys, daddy is stinky an needs a bath!' shes very thoughtful and says ' daddy naked!' I' confirm,' yep! in the bath, gotta be naked' so she starts saying 'daddy dinkle daddy dinkle!' so trying not to laugh \I'm agreeing 'yep daddys dinkles in the bath too! hehe.